Update on everything:

I have an online diary and I have been posting on there. I just looked at my "socials" bookmark and found this.  Warning my diary is nsfw

My birthday came and went. It was not goodbut I did get a laptop. Though I did not want a laptop so I am not happy about it. Well I am sorta happy I just don't like it. I also got other things I did not like because I went through a mass change of identity during the lock down and my sister thought I was an identity I had not been for over a year. Yikes.

However because I am sixteen now I get to buy energy drinks. I will or will not get id-d because I look like jeffery damher (my mother said so). I can drive next year so I would just use a driving license.

My boyfriend broke upwith me, blocked me. I used an alt account to text him. He replied, I did too. He blocked me again so I used my other account to send a goodbye message and said that I still loved him. He broke up with me for a stupid reason. Anyway because he didn't block me on everything I mentioned someone he did and said good luck and he called me a stalker. Maybe don't fucking act like I am in the wrong and I wouldn't have to text you actively saying that what I did wasn't bad.

Anyway I unfollowed him on the things I know I follow him on. I started deleting stuff I was going to send to him or it is about him. But he is geniuley mentally Ill so I do not blame him. I mean so am I but we were too similar. I am not actively harassing him. he is stubborn and a bit of an idiot who can't and wont see my side. He is blocked on some accounts, others he is unfollowed.

Anyway, I am afraid of a lot of stuff. I also failed my gcses. I hate the course that I am doing and cannot back out now.