my mother got mad at me ig

 So um, this post will be very long but I need some sort of emotional comfort rn. So at the start of the summer my father got ill. His illness was a simple hearing problem that later on effected his whole body.  He also got hospitalized because of that. My mother was works from morning to night so I was with my aunt, from home to my sailing course. But we had a plan to go on a vacation at the start of september and my mother asked if I was excited. And I simply said not that much since I was going to start a new school I had that on my mind. Then she kinda got mad since I said I pretty much didnt feel anything about this vacation.  Then she suddenly started to cry and ran downstairs, yelled at my father for a short time and now I dont know what to feel about this. I mean should I blame myself?? Pls help I really dont know what to do :((((