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I'm and SO excited to finally start college, not only will I be able to dress how I want but I'll also be able to meet new people. I am slightly scared, obviously, but the kind of scared where I still feel a level of security that nothing truly bad will happen? Worst case scenario, I get stuck in a course I discover I dislike (which wont happen as I'm doing MUSIC!!!), my teacher sucks or my class sucks- which, from what I've seen, they don't!! I've already made friends at the tester day I went to and the people there are really nicee :33 

It doesn't seem like I'll get bullied or made fun of, which I know is a lot less common in college. Maybe people from other courses?? (wood working course.. eugh... but obviously I can't judge somebody of a course they do so I'm staying hopeful :P) bleehh I've started to get quite nervous really... thinking about it is scary.. but it is only 2 years of my life and I only have to go in 4 days a week so I'm v happy about thattt :D

hm.... what else is going on with me... well... I've been hanging out with my family more and going outside (rare occurrence :O T_T) but I've started reading this book called Hollow and it's rlly surreal and kewl !! rawr... I also made my own denim shorts the other day by cutting up some black jeans I never wear~ I'm making these silly jean leg warmer things with the remaining material >:3

Desperate to do another gig.. haven't rehearsed with kill the sound guy in a while I miss it .. But I've been learning and writing new songs on the guitar that we can hopefully play at some point if the time is right.. I know there's one song I wrote recently that they're excited to play :)) It's more nu-metal themed- I called it 'Esposa' which is Spanish for 'wife'- been making extra effort to be happy and healthy recently as I went through a break up a bit ago. I want to talk to somebody about it but wouldn't know what to say, I guess I just want somebody to fully understand me and my thought process- although that idea of mental lock in is scary. 
Trying to revisit old hobbies like sewing and reading is proving to be quite fun and distracts me from feeling sad or overthinking.

About to cook dinner for my family which is always a joy (not sarcastic although it seems it) 
byebye!! :3