cross-dressing, desires, & current thoughts

I f-ing love cross dressing I love being a boy who looks like a girl I love being a pretty boy!!1!1! suck on that!!! I wish I could look like Liza Minelli sometimes but I still want to be a boy and. you know. viewed as one. I just got that drag queen and cross dressing swagger and y'all WISH you were me. anyways, I want to go thrifting soon I'd like more clothes to experiment with. I love fashion I am unsure why I don't consider it as something I really like more often. yeah, I'd also like more crucifixes and crosses for my wall, little section next to my Rozz Williams little area on the wall. It's a tin poster of him in the early CD days in the wedding dress. I have chains and a cross necklace and rosary hanging from the pins on it. under are the Christian Death, Shadow Project, and Premature Ejac. symbols. I also have a card that says "happy day" because of an inside joke. there's also a razor blade pinned to the wall with a broken sword ring hanging with it. dunno, thought it was cool so I did it. I made Bauhaus and Fear Cult posters so they're hanging above both of those areas, I have a 45 Grave one as a work in progress I just keep forgetting to finish it. I love decorating my walls. I love decorating I should look into a design position. drinking grape juice and listening to Echo and the Bunnymen and Fear Cult. I might rewatch Cabaret since it's on Tubi now. I can't sleep even though I have school in the morning. first night without her and it feels so unreal. I'm glad she's better off, it just hurts. I'll meet her again one day, but I have enough time until then. she'd want me to keep going. I like this website, it reminds me of LiveJournal.