I like him ALOT.

  9/2/24

       He's so fine. I love his long dirty blond hair that he puts into a bun and the slides that he wears every day to school. I love his dorky anime T-shirts and his black/dark grey sweatpants. But it's not just about the way he dresses; or looks. I love his nerdy personality. I love how much he likes anime and how strongly he can feel about something. I love the annoying cringe jokes he makes and how he doesn't care if he's funny or not. I love how straightforward he is, and I love how he laughs in a goofy tone. I love his dark hazel-green eyes. I love how he gives a thumbs-up whenever I talk to him across the classroom. I love how he's always smiling. I love the way his name comes out of my mouth. I love that he loves cats. I love his code name; "coal miner" I love how it's silly and makes me laugh at why I chose that name. I love that he sends me photos of cats from Wikipedia.

but there are things that I hate.

        I hate that I can't tell him because I don't know him well enough yet. I hate that I know he doesn't feel the same way about me. I hate that I'm hiding my blogs from him because I'm weird if he sees this. I hate that I can write these things out but it's too strong of feelings for a "crush" and this is probably "creepy", "weird", and "annoying". Because if he saw this, I know we probably couldn't be friends with him anymore. It would be weird. And I don't want to be in an awkward school relationship. I want to have a good friendship with him. but I wish that friendship could be more. I wish we could be together without him knowing we're together. I know it doesn't make sense. But I don't care. This is how I feel.

UPDATE: (i do NOT like this man anymore)

SEE YA L8R,

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