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ik it's okay to disociate and make up imaginary scenarios in ur head bu i feel like ive been doing it to an unhealthy point. When im studying i imagine sum1 else is there with me and they help me studying to feel less lonely and more concentrated in studying, when my mom yells at me i imagine sum1 cheering me up and when im sick i imagine that same persone taking care of me. Its so hard for me to actually care bout real problems that ik ill have to face someday cuz atp im not even fully concious that i have to live this life and not the one im making up. I can't even recognize neither my name nor my face cuz they dont even feel mine, and when i look into the mirror its so hard to bealive that im actualy ugly and not pretty as i pretend i am
am i cooked?
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Izzy
I second the last comment. Also, I don't believe you're cooked, given that you're aware of it and come to face it.
D34d_p03t ^o^
ok, i'm not a therapist but u should def get some help :/ if u think u will not be able to deal with real life, it's not good. People love to daydream and imagine etc, but not to these levels. MAYBE you could have some form of maladaptive daydreaming (even tho, again, i'm not a therapist and this is just a possibility) and perhaps even depersonalization (?) not healthy btw. i also love to daydream a lot, but if u feel like It might go out of hand, tell someone....
Who could i tell? I used to go to the psychologist but this daydreaming issue wasnt as big as now and i didn't find it important enough to tell my psychologist. Now that i dont go to therapy anymore, i cant just ask my parents to take me back there cuz its expensive and they'll get worried thinking that i've relapsed into the stuff that took me there:(
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Mh... does ur school have a therapist? From what i know they should be Free! Maybe u could try... even tho some of them are not really... professional, let's say :/
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idk i'm going to a new school in 2 weeks
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