Bad Feeling

Disclaimer: This blog is kind of a vent, so don't read if you're not in the right mindset

I need to get my feelings out there and a blog is probably the best way to deal with this now. I've been feeling really happy the last few days but of course the depression can't stay away for too long. So I guess I'm back to being a depressed loser.

I feel like I'm winning so much and at the same time I'm loosing everything else. I have a future now, but the past is lost.

I've been happy, because I finally got into a university and I'll move soon.

But it was kind of ruined because my mother is having a crisis. Most kids experience their parents divorce when they're younger and understandably feel very sad because of this. I'm an adult technically, but it still feels pretty awful...It feels childish really.

I have to grow up now, do things on my own, but the bad feeling makes it really hard to take care of myself. I don't know what I'm going to do, how I can find work. It just seems really difficult to do and there's nobody to help me. I know this is normal, but I honestly can't do it.