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hey its been a while...ik no one gonna see this i mean this web is dead asf no one talk to me. i just wanna talk about my feelings here since i have no one to talk to.. hehe lets get started shall we <3

soo i have a friend lets call her clam LMAO bcs her name is the same as clam so i thought it was funny she couldve kill me now heh she wont find out anyway. She is the best friend i could had we've been together for like a year and half or sumn. Clam is reaalllyyy nicest person ever sometimes she would treat me ilhrsm she always be there for me when i needed and i always be there for her too..we were happy then till now something rlly off about us and its so obvious i feel like shes avoiding me...it all started last week sometime i tried to talk to her but she just idk shes not listening to me...she is with someone else now but the way clam treated her is the same way like clam did to me. idk what did i do wrong to her...and idk how to feel rn its all mixed emotion sad,angry,jealous all of em...everytime i see them my heart did a lil jump i have no idea what that means and i felt like i want to cry...idk what to do i cant handle the tension anymore. i want us to get back how we used to...does she hate me? is it my fault? are we not friends anymore? am i making her uncomfortable? i want to hug her and tell her i love her. well at least clam is happy with her now :') as long as clam is happy then im happy