something that means alot to me

answering a journal prompt from pinterest!!

"whats something that means alot to you but no one would understand?"

honestly just being talked to or having my existence ackknowledged and seen means alot, even i find it weird but it just feels nice to be seen and to feel real

ive always felt like some weird outcast that nobody really cares about, even when i was way younger i belived no one would really love me because i felt ugly, and i felt like i wasnt really seen, and i felt annoying.

but whenever people talk to me, or look at me, as long as it isnt completely bad, it just feels good. like...wdym you see me??wdym your taking any amount of time to think or talk to me??

it also means alot when people think of me or my interests

i get really happy when my friends show me things they found of my interests or even when my parents get me stuff of it, it always feels nice because i feel supported and like people actually remember and listen to me

or sometimes my friend will remember stuff i said even from a long time ago

ik when i was younger i considered just shutting up for good, yet never really did but whenever people actually enjoy talking and listening to me, it just feels really good.

idk i like being seen and heard, it always makes me happy even if it seems small :3