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i really do enjoy the pass time of being alone and in my own biome. i love the sound of atoms bouncing off the wall while simultaneously going insane from the sound of atoms bouncing off the walls. however, i do not enjoy being lonely. the feeling of loneliness hits heavier than being alone because you are too self-aware of your isolation to the point you realize no one is really there when you need someone. obviously im aware that loneliness is just a feeling but to me it also seems like an action. being alone is physically being alone. loneliness is the emotion acting on an action. the disconnect from others but yourself from being alone while also having a disconnect from others emotionally and sometimes wanting both at the same time. i don't want both at the same time though. anyway, just the overall angst and sadness you feel from loneliness makes being alone a lot more depressing. thank you.
stupid rant bc i have a problem with oversharing to strangers on the internet
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Statiscit 🍉
the need for human connection is almost mandatory for each person, no one survives in solitude but that does not imply someone should be surrounded by people all the time. What’s needed is moreso the reassurance that there are people in your life who care about you despite being in a solitary state but hey what do I know, I’m not a poet
i definitely agree. the need for human connection and the response your body makes when those needs aren't met (i.e. long showers, self-soothing, cuddling body pillows, and more) makes your body produce a hormone called cortisol (stress hormone). being restricted from physical touch can literally lead to stress, depression, anxiety, and other mental and physical issues. im not really a physical touch person for i get nervous with certain actions but i would like the touch of someone that cares enough to do so. like a hug or sumthing, nothing else.
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I understand that completely honestly. I’m not used to physical touch and find hugs rather uncomfortable and awkward for the most part. I remember however making an exception for an old friend of mine a few years ago, I wasn’t even sure why honestly but she was one of the only people I’d hug. I will say I also relate to taking long showers especially very hot ones and hugging my pillow at night, I’m touch deprived but also have no idea where to find the solution
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im the same exact way lol. the heat from other people, the way they smell, if their hands are really sweaty or too soft, if they're even a good hugger, if they feel comfortable to hug, literally everything goes thru my head and i wish i can find one person where i don't have to feel or think like that. i just need to figure out who is gonna reciprocate
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this is real
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