8/24/2024

I dont even know how to start this shit off bro. Like the amount of hatred i have in my heart rn for Sean is crazy and im not used to feeling that much distress for absolutely no reason at all other than cause white people think that they can do what they want and never have to answer for the shit they do/ done.

I dont understand how me going to go and grab my things from downstairs (underwear so i could continue packing my bag) led to him trying to be slick and trying to cross boundaries i made abundantly clear he was crossing and that i didnt fucking want. 

Im not sure why men but especially WHITE MEN think they can do whatever they want to people of color and get away with it all cause you are trained to lie. Your LIES dont negate the truth or facts. 

If someone says no and they have to repeat themselves you dont get to say someone is over reacting for you trying to cross boundaries that were effortlessly laid out for you.

Willful ignorance does not exonerate you of the evil shit you are doing and continue to do. 

What a shame to fuck up the chance given to you by trying to be a colonizing piece of white dog shit. I will NEVER hold empathy for him again. I shouldve NEVER felt that way and if my kick to your chest made you so scared then maybe you shouldnt be doing things that make people have to kick you to defend themselves!

How do you ruin a moment that was suppose to be for us to go hang out and travel?

I feel like even if you didnt want me going to meet your parents i TOLD YOU i had hella other places to go and be instead of pulling that weird ass shit on me. NO MEANS NO.

I shouldnt have to give you mfs and explanation about what no means in the context im talking about it but those of you wondering, my Bf tried to perform bondage on me that specifically said i would never engage in. He wanted to push my boundaries after i said i dont want to ever be tied up. IVE NEVER EXPRESSED LIKING SHIT LIKE IT IN THE LAST 6 YEARS IVE KNOWN HIM and i physically had to twist my whole body around (he had my ankles in the air) and take the leg he wouldnt let go of and use his own weight against him and shoved him as far as i could across the room to which he proceeded to fall to the ground and act stunned.

STOP DOING SHIT LIKE THAT!

Just cause you are partners with someone doesnt mean you get to push their boundaries all cause you think its cute. Some of us have trauma and when we say no we mean fucking no bitch. I shouldnt have had to do that to defend myself against someone i TRUSTED!

Then you all wanna act like black/ brown people are aggressive for defending themselves against harm. Very VERY WEIRD behavior that yall do too often to people and expect to never get caught for all the evil shit yall keep putting into the world. 

AINT SHIT SWEET ABOUT THAT! 

HOW DARE HE try to gaslight me as if he wasnt being weird about shit. You will never make me feel bad for defending myself against something that felt VERY CLOSE TO THE SHIT I JUST WENT THROUGH! 

I will never trust you again. IDC what you do or say. You are a man. Nothing to trust and just someone i used to know.