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"I'm so delulu!!" but because of tiktok people think it just means oh, I'm thinking about someone alot because I have a crush on them! actually no, I'm a maladaptive daydreamer who makes up ideas and futures with someone I've only talked to twice in my life. even WORSE is if I actually talked to them or they reach out to me! well recently I've been doing alot of reflecting and realizing oh hey, yeah this isn't healthy and I'm sabotaging my own chances !
so, here's what I've been doing. Anytime I can catch myself thinking of a real person when I'm daydreaming I snap myself out of it. And if I seriously can't stop or it's hard to do so? I get up and make myself do something. I throw my phone to the side and I make myself go organize something. I force myself to listen to cds instead of my headphones. I open my window to feel the breeze. I ground myself. And now, as I try to actually attempt to talk to people again, I keep my expectations low. Bare minimum. I try to push away my own insecurities and I also push down my hopes. I make no assumptions about how it's gonna turn out, I just trust whatever happens will be what is meant to happen. I don't try to rush it. I'm not going to push it. I keep myself in check and trust everything I desire will come to me with time. I'm healing, and I'm not perfect, but I'm trying my best.
sorry if im not the greatest at expressing myself lmfao hopefully you get what i mean ! love u take care 🧘♀️
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Zoseph
Thats really unique! I have exhibited MD since the 90s and for me the use of real people I know in my dreams is really limited, it's more like "Oh this character is a bit like this person," but normally its only like, in a very specific way-- So maybe the way someone acts is like one person I've met before, but if they talked like someone I have either met before or have just heard in a film or something".
and honestly the better I know someone the less like I am to even think of them while dreaming? Maybe I find strangers very inspiring but once I know someone well their reactions or traits are less novel to think about?
Any good for you for taking action about somethin that was making u uncomfy!
yes I agree with the more you know someone the less likely you are to MD about them!! with me it usually happens when I'm first meeting someone especially if I have romantic interest in them. As I've gotten older I've lost alot of my creative spark so while my younger self had tons of daydreams about different stories and ideas with me I only have those once in a blue moon and typically it's me imagining myself in different scenarios nowadays.
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