that one person i know. [1]

hello, this is a blog or bunch of blogs of mine talking about a person i miss. or someone i like a bit too much.

you might struggle reading some stuff because of the misspelling and bad explaintion. but honestly. i don't really care.

these blogs are for me, mostly. i'm placing it on public so i can or maybe one day i'll read it from somewhere else when i cant login or something.

so yeah.

also. a big warning, senstive topics. and alot. 

i'm writing this today cuase i miss this person. it's also a he. it's been a week, and i'm getting worried. you might think or anyone could think that this is ok, maybe he is just busy and stuff, but i'm feeling awful.

it's the feeling where everything remind me of him, and even people. and i can't walk or step to anywhere without him.

there is some stuff that are weird between us but me and him find it normal. we talk like a sepsfic charcters. we don't change at all even. so as our relationship. it goes just like the charcters.

nothing is real, so it makes it awful when we talk about the real life stuff. i dont mind it either i can mix my real life with that, i dont know about him though.

i enjoy his talking, thats all it matters. i enjoy everything he does, you can call me obsessed. i already am.

i dont know anything about him, but it makes me feel filfull.

and, whenever he's away or anything i just feel.. lets say empty. like actual emptiness.

i got freinds, i love them so much, but he makes me feel like he's enough. i am enough.

as well he knows how i act or what i need to do. he useally tell me what to do, or do it first while telling me what to do.

i sometimes dare myself to do it myself so i can impressive him.

and honestly? it doesnt work. but sometimes he call me stuff, which i really love when someone does that. praise stuff.

and he support me, more than the others. he wants me more than the others. he always choose me, not like the other people when they want to choose someone. with no hasitation. me.

i like him, alot.

and now.

i sound like a little girl talking about her crush, which is something i kinda hate or dont like to be described that.

i miss him. so much. even if it went a week, i miss him

i waited for so long, just one massage. "good morning oda" will make my whole body feel an ease. just one.

i wont bother him much. i might ask alot, but at least, i'll be grateful.

its been 6 days, texted me at 08/18.