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I despise people who pretend to be "lonely", "losers" , or even worse, "neets" and "hikikomori". Nothing about being lonely is desirable or fun. It's a draining feeling, your throat and chest hurt from always holding back tears, your stomach aches from jealousy and desire, and there's a pounding in your head screaming to get out of the house and to go do something.
Loneliness hurts. What's even worse is that loneliness keeps you lonely, it gets to your head. It makes you feel like you're not good enough for other people, like you truly don't fit in anywhere, or that no one notices you, and the cycle continues.
The only thing that gets rid of loneliness is company, obviously. True company. Not drugs, not alcohol, not food or any other temporary substances. Crying and cutting are only temporary fixes.
I don't know how much longer I can stand being lonely. I've become numb to the pain in my chest and the pounding in my head but I don't want to give up so soon in life. I can't help but soothe myself with alcohol and cry myself to sleep. I'm tired of living this way but I don't know how to get out of this cycle.
Anyone with advice please feel free to comment.
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ꜱᴛᴀꜱɪᴜꜱ
i couldnt agree w u more, they piss me off so bad calling themselves losers as a quirk just bc they like some specific fake niche stuff
Mari
I'm sorry to hear that, people are inconsiderate assholes. I really do hope things start looking up for you. What really helped me personally was volunteering. I started volunteering at a youth center and met a lot of new people that way. The volunteering itself got me out of the house at least, and on top of that those new people also started inviting me to things. It's really difficult forcing yourself to do these things, but it made me feel a lot less lonely.
I've done a bit of volunteering but nothing ever really comes of it except for something to put on my resume :') Unfortunately there are no youth centers in my city, but I've also been looking at getting a job in food service or retail once I get my license :')
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Jeffrey is here
Loneliness really hurts, but people treat it like an aesthetic and things it's quirky and cool but have never felt what it's like to actually be lonely and filled with pain. It's a cruel world where the only people that have a advantage in it is fake people
Jeffrey is here
Loneliness really hurts, but people treat it like an aesthetic and things it's quirky and cool but have never felt what it's like to actually be lonely and filled with pain. It's a cruel world where the only people that have a advantage in it is fake people