[08.23.24] arghghghhhh

> wowwie wowow it's been like a bazillion years since i've last logged in.. woww, alott has changed since my last blog which I think was seven months ago..

> my mom is still with her boyfriend, they still argue a bunch aaaand I'm having a baby brother,, yay.. /sarc ,, not that I don't want a little sibling, its just a whole other thing I know I'm going to have to worry about later, plus they argue over little things, and I feel like they don't like each otherrrrrr anyway

> over the summer I got to stay with my dad and that was really fun! except for the fact that he's unemployed nowww and homeless technically.. yay. he was getting let off from his job because he's not really good y'know he has really bad focusing problems, but instead of letting himself get fired and still get money while he's in the middle of trying to get another job, he decided to just quit!! meaning he doesn't have a job, AND not getting any money. and instead of at least trying to get another job he wanted to "start his new business". his idea is to sell lessons for guys or smth to "teach them to be a man" like social skills.. for 10k dollars. I don't think its gonna work because honestly who has that kinda money to just drop on someone who has no background, got fired, and never went to college. and even if they did have that kind of money, I think they would rather get like a therapist or some shit I don't know.. that kinda stressed my stepmom out, because she has multiple jobs while my dad was sitting on his ass doing nothing, don't get me wrong I love him but sometimes I just really hate what he does. before I left my stepmom told me that she had enough money to stay afloat until the end of August, and then they're gonna live separately while they figure stuff out or whatever, but I'm pretty sure she and my brother already living with her friend now.

> the day I flew back my mom was already kinda mad with me, like not like I did anything but when someone is just constantly mad, I try to be understanding because she's pregnant, but she's always done this before too soooooo,, arghsahggsgsg. they had a baby shower too, but then my mom and her boyfriend starting arguing because my mom's guy friend had came and he didn't like that because he thinks he's in love with her or smth, but I'm pretty sure that he said he would fuck her while he was drunk. idfkk. 

> I started marching band camp!!! I'm on bass one and that was super fun,, but reeeeeally tiring. our section leaders are pretty nice, and the whole drum line went to dinner every Friday and that was also fun. I started school too, I'm a freshman in high school ( yayyyy ) and the hallways are a little confusing but I think I'm figuring it out. 

> yesterday I got kind of mad because this whole week i've been constantly getting yelled at by my mom, my two friends are kind of excluding me and my other friend and ignoring us, and I had forgotten to bring shorts to wear so I had to march in jeans.. I also didn't have any water so while we were doing our last run through of the whole show I kinda threw up a little bit, yum. I almost passed out and I got a little mad at my friend because they kept asking if I was okay and I know that they were just worried but it wasn't really helping, but I apologized. 

> I have regular band class next, I had to be put in beginning percussion even though i've been playing drums for two years, which I know isn't a lot but still. I feel bad though because my friend was but in beginning too but he's been playing for ten years. we have to be in beginning during freshman year because there's only two percussion classes. so we will be in advanced next year. i'm excited for band class because my lovelyy amazing boyfriend got moved to our band class!! yayayayay!! I'm so happy, I think I forgot to mention that I have a boyfriend now, or I wasn't really blogging at the time it happened, but I will tell more about it another time because I kindaaa only have five more minutes before advisory ends byebyeeee!!! 

> also sorry if this is shitty I was just kinda dumping and ignore all the spelling mistakes or wtv okay bye!!!