poem talk

i picked literature this year because obviously i like writing and reading stories and poems, but i forgot that a need would probably be to present them. don't get me wrong, im okay with my class, we only have 9 official people who come often and i don't have any bad blood with them, i've just never had someone else read my writing apart from teachers and i don't particularly plan to have that changed.

i trust my friends, at least the two in my class i talk to, but they're honest enough to tell me if they think it sucks. i know criticism is important to improving but i don't write for others, even though my teacher wants me to. most of my poetry is personal and directed to a particular group, so for someone who wasn't meant to understand it reads it, doesn't understand it, then insults it, i don't think id ever trust them to judge my work again.

I've had one of them ask to see my work once, thankfully online, and they hasn't bought it up since. but i feel as if they're waiting for something to be given to them and i don't want them to have any expectations that i know i wouldn't have reached. I'd prefer if my work were to be displayed it would have been made with that intention, that it wouldn't have my heart and mind written in every line with hidden meanings.

displaying that sort of feeling and trust to someone is not something i plan to do, even my most trusted loved one hasn't seen my thoughts poured out onto paper like that and giving it to people i wont ever talk to again doesn't feel, wanted !!