TODAYYYY

so basically I went to a mets game and it was vs the Baltimore Orioles, I've never been to a baseball game except to a small one when I was 3 that I don't remember so this was kinda new and exciting. I am not the biggest sports fan or baseball fan in general but I do like both the mets and orioles so I didnt care who won, however I was wearing a mets shirt so I did kinda root for the mets ykyk but still!!! I feel really bad for the orioles. I got really good seats because we won tickets, and I found out my ex crushes girlfriend was there too?? 😭 which probably meant my ex crush / first love was there also but it would of been kinda cool if I saw him. anywayyy my favorite part was when they played hot to go and I did the dance and I sang at the top of my lungs horribly.. but I also really liked when they showed Kevin James on the screen idk if he was there or not but it would be so cool if he was!! I also looked pretty good considering how ugly I am and I felt pretty confident and overall had a good time. I tried conclear for the first time today and realized I got the wrong shade and basically just used it as a contour. but it still came out pretty good and I'm just happy overall with today. before going in the morning I watched a little of a new show I started pen15 it's pretty good I would recommend it. I have a bunch of shows and movies I wanna watch before I go back to school, I was also supposed to see my irl friend today and meet her bf I set her up with but I was so tired I fell asleep and didn't go - I'll meet him soon hopefully!! he's going on vacation so it might be a while but we will figure it out. my other irl friend isn't talking to me anymore and only sends me snaps like it's getting fucking on my nerves, bro if you don't wanna be friends anymore just straight up tell me and don't just use me to keep your dumb snap streak going like wtf 😭 whatever, fuck you!!!! my crushes brother posted a recent picture of my crush on his Instagram and bro he had a glow up man I am sooooo head over heels for him, he's not even conventionally attractive he's just sweet and funny. but he's really cute too, yk like their looks grow on you even when that's not what immidately drew you to them. I hope I have classes with him this year but I doubt it my schedule is all fucked up, I have no lunch when I asked for lunch every other day and that's what they promised to give me 💀 I have 3 ap classes, and gym alternating with a math lab 2nd period. I might kill myself. WITH NO CLASSES WITH MY FRIENDS OR CRUSHES OR ANYTHINGGG BROOOO‼️‼️ come on I need to change up this god for saken schedule..! I also don't know what I'm gonna do for hoco because I'm fat and ugly. and probably don't fit into my dress I wore last year anymore.. idk anyway I'm gonna go this was a long rant. bye!!!!!