JOBLESS AF

man, im 19 and deaf as hell, and honestly, im so over being jobless. before anyone starts hating, bru idc im over it fr. its js wild seeing other 19 yo out there doing better while im broke as hell. i cant even buy shit i want without my parents knowing and yeah im the baby of the family and kinda spoiled but it makes me feel guilty when they spend money on me. on top of that, my parents wont even let me get a job, they do not even complain about me being jobless or sum (yes i have loving parents but)????? help???????????????? im seriously scared to work bc of my deafness. i use asl, notes or texts to communicate and im terrified of getting rejected or havin trouble working with people or my mind goes blank af when someone try to talk to me. bro this is awful fr. my social anxiety is off the charts- i get super shaky and sweat a lot. its honestly draining and driving me insane. it feels like the universe has decided that im stuck in this "unemployed"limbo forever. its so frustrating i js want to make some money and be independent. id be so much happier if i wasnt fucking deaf bruh anyways thanks for ur time for reading! have a good day and take care, guys >.<