🥀 I Feel So Alone ⚠TW; Mentions of Death

I’m dying.

I’m cold and I’m alone, and I’m dying.

I’m drowning and no one fucking understands.

I don’t mean it in a “no one understands mom” cringe way.

I mean it.

I can’t find one person who actually understands.

I’m fucking isolated and I’m dying.

I want to peel my own fucking skin off my bones.

I want to rip my lungs out of my chest and crush my own still beating heart,

For fucks sake, I want DEATH.

Just kill me!

That’s all I fucking ask!

I’m tired of playing romeo and juliet with life.

Life is here one minute,

Gone the next,

“Be free, join us, it's beautiful out here”

Only to get sucked back into this hell hole of a life.

Its like romeo trying to get to juliet,

Except this juliet is too much of a coward.

She’s ignorant.

She’s undeserving and she’s so fucking ignorant that maybe she deserves to be trapped.

Too fucking stupid to take a chance.

To take a dare.

Fucking pathetic.

It's a wonder anyone cares for her at all.

I deserve every horrible, sad thing that happens to me.

If I’m just going to sit here and take it, then I deserve to suffer like the coward I am.

Kill me.

But Kill me only if you have mercy.

For if you have no mercy, torture me.

I deserve it.

And it makes me feel.

So perhaps it's helping me.

Hurt me,

Cut me,

Sear me,

End me,

Fucking bastardize me for all i care.

Hang my neck from my own rope I’m too scared to actually use.

But only after you force my mouth full of all those pills I refuse to take.

Hurt me.

Rob me of my youth,

And harm me for my life.

Take me.

I’m far more ready for the afterlife.