social awkardness

Ive been pretty much alone during my whole life, at home, at school, outside, and anywhere I remember

sure I had a few friends in class during the years, friends who had other friends that were more relevant than me

what I considered my best friend since my firsts years of highschool, had changed a lot. She had been around different people, ignoring me for days and then talks to me as if nothing happened and she keeps being passive aggressive, telling me Im too weird for befriending the other guys in our class and a lot more

she was the only person I was close to in the whole school, now I spend most of the days alone at home, alone outside AND alone at school too

Im not bothered by the fact that she has new friends, Im happy for her, but I just wish she didnt ignore me like this and she could stop acting like something she isnt, because Ive knew her for a longer time and I know shes just as ''weird'' as me

Ive tried to address this with her, but the only response I got was that it was my fault for being too socially awkward and not talking to other people

it hurts me hearing this while she knows Im not just a shy person, but a person with diagnosticated mental stuff that struggles a lot with that, we are definetly not the same, whats easy for her is rlly hard for me, but she wont understand that, so I wont argue anymore

I wish I had someone else to be with if I distanced myself from her, but I don't have it yet, so for now Ill just thug it out and keep everything as it is