lore drop!! (not using my typing quirks, TW: verbal and physical abuse, sh, sewerslide attempt, grooming, sa, addiction yk stuff like that)

Hiu im Slime / Slimy. Here's my lore droppp >.<

When i was 6 or 7 i discovered that i liked girls because of this one girl in my school then i started crushing on other girls soo yea, never really liked boys haha. when i was 9 I started dating my now ex girlfriend Koda, we dated for 2 years then broke up because she was very controlling and would only show love towards me when she wanted something(also we only really saw eachother on the bus and hung out on the weekends bc we didn't have classes together.) around 2 months into dating her i told my mom and then she told my dad, to which he responded in a very non-supportive way. he called me an idiot and said i was disgusting. 

When i was 10 i started dressing more boyish(it wasn't new though bc i've been this way since 8) because i realized that i felt more comfortable, then i figured i was trans and during ages 10 and 12 i went through a gender crisis and now i've figured out im non-binary. 

When i was 7 or 8 my younger sister sa'd/raped me(? dont know how to really lable it.) She is 1 year younger than me so she was either 6 or 7, most people i tell dont believe me about this so um yea, then later on that year a boy from my school sa'd me. when i was 9 or 10 i was groomed by a 19 year old and he threatened to hurt me and my family if i didn't send him photos of myself, when i refused he sent my address and said he lived near by and manipulated me into sending photos of myself, then we "dated" for a year before my parents found out and beat me for it before breaking my phone. 

When i came out as trans at the age of 11 my mother said she supported me at first when i told her i was dating someone of the same gender, because she thought it was a phase, but now that its been going on for more than 4 years she doesn't see me the same and says she will not support me any longer.

my very first attempt at suic1de i was 9, i had just lost my Grany to lung cancer and i was in a horrible state. I would harm myself with sharpened pencils and i would often wake up screaming or crying in the night, and i would pray and beg god to take me and let me be with her. i really needed a hug oml. i still do sh, but im trying my best to get better. 

I have endured both of my parents physical and verbal abuse for my whole life, one night i snapped and i had enough of it. My mother had taken away my phone, computer, all things i could use to get into contact with friends, family, basically isolating me from the world. i couldn't go out, i couldn't leave for a walk, i couldn't do anything. one night she allowed me to have my phone for 30 minutes because i was basically BEGGING and PLEADING to talk to someone. I talked to my now ex-girlfriend Aria, once that 30 minutes was up my mother came to collect my phone and when i told her i wanted more time to talk to her, she screamed in my face and smacked me, so i smacked her back. She pinned me down to my bed and was punching and slapping and screaming at me while trying to snatch the phone out of my hand, I was kicking and screaming underneath her. afterward there was blood on my hands and blood dripping from my nose mouth and on my eyebrow(i have a scar from that one), my father came up a few minutes later and yanked me up and beat me with a belt, leaving bruises all over my legs and back. (was worth it though, they haven't fucked with me since XD.)

my parents are now choosing to do things like that to my younger sister and i am unable to help her, i feel awful for it. my parents are now trying to redeem themselves, my mother is getting therapy and choosing the path of god, my father is also choosing the path of god and they are both forcing it onto my younger brother. i can do nothing but sit and watch, hoping he doesn't turn out like them.

when i was 11 i was pressured to hit my friends vape, drink alcohol and smoke multiple times. now i am addicted to nicotine and im not really addicted to alcohol but i feel like i NEED it sometimes, idk

erm whattt!!! that was a SHIT TON of writing (ó﹏ò｡)