WHO AM I???

UGH!

i've been really upset lately over the fact i don't feel "unique."

i really follow trends and i always say, "well, they're popular for a reason! there's no need to hate on something popular." 

and it's not wrong entirely, it's okay to like popular things, but then i got to a point where i only liked popular things... specifically because of the tiktok algorithm (oops!), 

and i saw a tumblr post where this person was saying that they take a long while before they interact with popular pieces of media, like music or movies. and ofc i was like, "it's not that serious,"

but to be honest, it kind of is! like do i like something because it's actually something i personally find enjoyable or do i like it because it's everywhere i go and everybody i talk to likes it? i try to be lenient because i am still in the stage where you're figuring yourself out, but still, i want to feel like me! but i don't know who me is... 

i feel like i should take a break from tiktok at least... see what i like and what i do when i have free time... i've never really had passions outside of crazy maladaptive daydreaming... but i have started to really like coding and making my little websites!

LALALALALA 🤡