a year of trust issues

im not usually one to rant to the internet about my personal problems, but as ive seen the person im mentioning about post something about this, i would like to share my side of the story. this story relates mainly to my ex-girlfriend, whom i will call averie.

it was last school year, i collected my group of friends, i found my people. it was awesome to finally feel like i belonged in something greater than just my small yet still entertaining group. averie was also in that group, and we were dating. the long story of how we became to be is something that is unnecessary to explain. during averie and i's relationship, all went well for the most part. due to circumstances, we did end up breaking up. for one, we lived too far from each other (around 15 minutes but my parents are very strict about going over to other houses), and two, we were going to different highschools. end of story, right? no.

during averie and i's relationship, there were a lot of "red flags" that i was far too oblivious to figure out on my own. my friends would constantly tell me about these red flags yet i didnt listen. why? i loved her too much and denied anyone who thought otherwise. averie, as well as 2 people of our group would constantly get into multiple full blasted arguments. this would happen CONSISTENTLY. no matter how many times we've resolved them, the arguments would just blast again and it would be a never ending cycle. things only went downhill from there. 

now, remember how i said averie had a lot of "red flags" i was far too oblivious to realize? i'll tell you some. throughout our relationship, we would very openly talk about things that are more in the sexual side. this could range from sweet talking to talking about the possibility of us having intercourse (keep in mind we are both minors and NOT of legal age for intercourse). whats so bad about that? i told her that it would was okay to talk to things like that, and we even agreed upon each other that we would try it (keeping it safe of course). but then there would be odd requests. requests for specific photos, and specific video calls with certain actions done (if you put two and two together, you can probably guess what that is.) this would continue, and would sometimes turn into begs. averie would constantly send me explicit photos in which i did not ask to receive, and would constantly tell me when she was "hard" (she is a transgender woman, and still has biological male genitalia.)

that was not the only huge red flag. another one was the unloyalty of averie. i know she had food intentions, however i always failed to see the loyalty she had. by this i mean, she was interested in other people while dating me. this lot included one of my closest friends, we'll call her katy. keep in mind, katy has had a boyfriend and has been VERY open about it, and averie had full knowledge of it. and this crush wasnt a secret either. averie would VERY obviously show signs, including praising how attractive katy is, and pointing out her curves and her body in general, showinf signs of jealously of her, and saying things like "i cant believe (katy's bf) ruined a good friendship i had", and "me and katy have so much in common, i wish she wasnt dating (katy's bf). this was all while averie was in relationship with me.

before i end this, i would like to mention that averie would compel herself to be in the arguments that her and the 2 people from our group would get themselves in. the 2 guys (james and katy's bf) would say something offensive to averie, and she would immediately bounce in the conversation, obviously striking an unnecessary argument between the three. this was a reoccurring thing, and you would assume that the one person would leave right? wrong. averie stayed and kept getting herself into predicaments like that, and kept complaining about how everyone hates her. to this day, she is still trying to get in contact to the group via a member of the group. though i was in relationship with averie, i no longer want to be associated with her. it was the most mentally draining year of my life, and i hope shes happier now. hope you enjoyed that long rant.

overall, a sexually immature partner and a manipulative person.

and if youre seeing this averie, i hope you're ecstatic to know that you ruined my mental state and successfully used me as your sex doll. and i dont want to "talk", i hoped you wouldve gotten the hint when i left, but i guess not.