I FELT NOTHING AT ALL UP UNTIL THIS MOMENT AND NOW IM BEING HIT WITH A TORRENT OF DREAD AND ANXIETY AT LEVELS THAT HAVE BEEN UNBEKNOWNST TO ME FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE BEFORE NOW.

ITS LIKE IM BEING PUMMELED BY A FREIGHT TRAIN OF FEAR

I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO EITHER FALL OR STAY ASLEEP FOR SEVERAL DAYS

WHY DIDNT I REVISE MORE OVER THOSE 6 GODFORSAKEN WEEKS? ITS AS THEY SAY: NO REST FOR THE WORTHLESS

INDOLENCE IS A DISEASE, AND THE SYMPTOMS HAVE FINALLY CAUGHT UP TO ME, FOR I HAVE FKUND MYSELF AT 3PM ON A TUESDAY MORNINF, SPASMING IN OURE TERROR FOR THE TRAGEDY THAT IS SBOUT TO UNFOLD IN A MATTER OF DAYS, AND I FKND MYSELF UTTERLY HELPLESS AT ITS MERCY. 

I've just finished fear and loathing in las Vegas and I think my brain has subconsciously mirrored the feeling of the book :/