what its like to drown

inhale and exhale but you breathe more water than you throw it up. you're hurting yourself by trying to save yourself but God knows you cant control it, so you continue. you're lost at sea and your legs are beginning to hurt and keeping yourself alive becomes exhausting. 

your lungs are full of freezing salt water and your throat burns, but for some reason, you have never felt more at peace

you cant stop gasping, you see nothing but darkness, and you lose touch with all that's around you. you cant tell which way is the surface and which way is your death. you welcome it, let it overcome you, and fall asleep.