I hope that you will never feel unwanted

17/08/24

Only four months 

And then what? I’m free? You don’t have to pay for me anymore? You already don’t. 

I’m really sad about us 

I really love your name but I couldn’t name my son that because I won’t have one 

I’m too scared of being a disappointment of a parent 

It’s a really pretty name but it’s yours now. And I can never use it because you’d think I was honouring you 

This is the least that I can do

You know I’m bad at calling you

So this one, this one makes two

I write another song 

It wasn’t about you 

It was about everything you’re not 

Everything I want 

And giving up 

I’m too predictable and I’m getting lonely 

Screaming infidelities and taking it’s wear 

Isn’t it great that I already have a million mixtapes for when I inevitably get my heart broken? 

I think we’re all misunderstood. That’s what makes us human. We’re all the same but we refuse to see that cause we need to be something better than human

Because what is human?

We can’t all be the same 

The broken hearted can’t be the same as the one who broke it 

I’m not the same as you 

I’m what you should be. 

You had everything I didn’t and you took it for granted and that’s why you’re like this. I bet it’ll take you twenty years and a shrink to realise that 

Good luck to your wife 

If you don’t want to say anything at all, I’m happy wondering 

I hope you’ll find me and kiss me like you mean it 

Run through the rain for me, throw pebbles at the window panes and make me feel worthy of John Hughes and love (which in my mind seem to be painfully intertwined)

I have lost myself again, as I always do

The owls are not what they seem 

Love as always

Yours, 

Miss misery