SOOO...

AHHH I HAVE NOT POSTED THAT MUCH BUT LIKE... THIS WEEK OR THE COUPLE OF WEEKDAYS.. WAS LIKE A WHOLE ASS ROLLERCOASTER OF EMOTIONS FOR ME! THE ITCHING ANXIETY, THE CRIPPLING FEAR OF A NEW CROWD, JUST SOBBING WHEN I COME BACK HOME FROM SUCH AN AWFUL DAY OF WASTED OPPORTUNITIES!!! 

BUT I STARTED ADJUSTING TO THIS WHOLE NEW PARADE... I'VE MET SOME PRETTY COOL DUDES, HELL I HAVE BEEN TERRIFIED CONFRONTING THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE. AND GODDD I WISH I MET THEM SOONER!!

I STARTED TO PARTICIPATE MORE, SMILE MORE, LAUGH MORE.. I'M STILL INTIMIDATED BY SOME BUT HEY I'LL GET THERE! 

IT'S GETTING BETTER.