U N R E T U R N E D L O V E

Why do I still have feelings for you? Why can't I forget them? 

  Why don't you just rip my heart out? And you keep it. I just want to stop having feelings for you because nothing will happen between the two of us and you have already warned me of that, and I simply avoided that warning and what a painful consequence.

  Also, who would want as a partner someone who even knows if they are a man or a woman, someone who doesn't have a favorite soccer team because they have never seen a single game.

  What the fuck did you do to me?

What did you do to have me at your mercy? Some kind of mooring or something? Witchcraft perhaps?

  I'm jealous of how some girls approach you so easily and start a conversation with you, something I can't do because of my nerves. Sometimes I like to think that something will open up one day, something between us, that little thought gives me hope to continue with my love; but just a couple of times that little hope goes away. Puff, it disappears.

  Did you know that it is said that the last thing you lose is hope? And that's what I'm losing as time goes by. 

And if one day I send you this message, I am ashamed of the fact that I insisted with my feelings, as they say "He who perseveres, achieves." But apparently that phrase doesn't suit me. Ha ha ha 

  But know that you will still be my friend, it will be difficult, but I will try.

  My feelings appeared when I least thought about it, and maybe that's how it will be when it's gone, it will be gone when I least think about it.

  I'll leave the letters alone, this will be the last one, or maybe I'll send it to you by message, you never know. But if you receive this writing/message it means that I will leave you alone. I also feel that it is uncomfortable for you, the fact that your friends ask you all kinds of things regarding grades, and since I don't want you to be uncomfortable, I will stop doing that.