[rant] new school year plan ruined so bad...

school started like early-mid july which is rlly earlier than other schools considering most of them esp public schools starting @ jul 29 and others in sept but our SY ended like a month earlier than the rest (april) so its fine ig

but OH MY GOD sm has changed and i do NOT like it at all

ok so last year there was this 7th grader he was harrasing evr1 like to the point the whole school knew him INCLUDING THE TEACHERS and complaints abt him were stacked on a daily basis numbers of parents confronting the school abt him but almost nothing was done except false hope bc the head supervisor told us (my friend was his 1st victim) that if he didn't pass this behavioral thingy he wouldn't be let in the school next SY cuz he had this like mental behavioral thingy idk they nvr told us but it was sure he had smth but guess what

he was let in

after a whole school year of complaints

witnesses from everyone

screaming banging tables unwanted touching

he was let in

LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!?!!?!?!?!!?!

yk whats funnier

is that the school like 3x their rules which dont make any sense at all if u take away the discipline part or maybe im too used to seeing american schools in media (i live in ph so u can take a guess what its like lol)

FIRST u cant enter the school if you have ur phone w u. u have to leave it at home and even in the slightest glimpse of a celluar phone that thing is GONE and only ur guardian can get it back not you

WHICH SUCKS ASS SO HARD since the place where my school is located is a city type and not the safest to walk alone in but there are students who commute home and what if they get in trouble? if they have to call their parents. they cant. bc they dont have their phone. the school took it away and they cant get it BC THEY THINK EVERYONE LIVES SO NEAR THE CAMPUS AND OUR LIVES ARE ONLY SURROUNDED TOWARDS ACADEMICS AND FRIENDS WHICH IS SO MOCKING AND THE FACT THAT IS THE MENTALITY OF THE PEOPLE IN MY COUNTRY MAKES ME HATE IT HERE SM like they r the reason why i havent tasted the slightest bit of independence and true privacy from my family i dont even have my own room bro and ive been begging bro so bad not even when i go to or gradutate college im still gonna live w my family

im so done with this bro

NEXT the schools so pressed abt 'decency' n shii like durng assembly they spend 15 mins js talking abt the rules like no make up no hair color no nails required haircut violations proper uniform like what if i pulled up in full vkei shit and get highest honnors? ik its not to distract and focus on studies but please stfu 🙏 like you cant js say 'let ur natural beauty shine' and expect us to follow

and dude just to GET INSIDE the school amkes me wanna leave already cuz ur not let in js like that u gotta line up to scan ur id then get ur bag checked and pockets too cuz of the phone thing i mentioned earlier and if u late then ur gonna be even more late bc they make u fucking line up if u arrve at 7:36 am and not 7:35 bc they think a five minute extension for 'late comers' is enough (the actuall time u gotta b @ school is 7:30 but they make exceptions 4 ppl who arrive @ 7:31-7:35) ik its later than the time mentioned but is allat nessecary like some of us have a quiz i the first subject and ur making my ass line up so i can write my name in a book and give me a slip and everything takes like 10-20 minutes bro WHATS THE HOLD UP??

they gotta make atleast a 2 minute exception 4 ppl who live far far cuz they traffic here is DEADLY and my house is 30-45 mins away, no traffic ofc. why do i even go to school so far away ToT

next is the education system n how they sched evrything. so they got this new thing where its not directly how the calendar shows u got this day 1 day 2 thing n on each day so example:

mon DAY 1: SCI, MATH, ICT, MAPEH, ENG

tues DAY 2: HISTORY, HOME EC, HUMANITIES, FILIPINO

wed DAY 3: SCI, MATH, ICT, MAPEH, ENG

thurs DAY 4: HISTORY, HOME EC, HUMANITIES, FILIPINO

fri DAY 0: HOMEROOM

day 0 is basically an extra day so they can be mental health helping (which is not helping at all) like they couldve made it no onsite classes or js a regular day instead anyways so secnario:
wednesday classes get cancelled bc of a hoiday or heavy rain so day 3 will move a day later and wedensday will become day 0 (no classes) so now ur sched is like

mon DAY 1: SCI, MATH, ICT, MAPEH, ENG

tues DAY 2: HISTORY, HOME EC, HUMANITIES, FILIPINO

wed DAY 0: HOMEROOM

thurs DAY 3: SCI, MATH, ICT, MAPEH, ENG

fri DAY 4: HISTORY, HOME EC, HUMANITIES, FILIPINO

tbh its good that theyre making the most of the academic week but its like too much to comprehend so it would be better to js use the same way schools did it pre pandemic like evryday is regular classes with all subjects in one day or maybe js not have homeroom at all and let us js stay home(?)

and the acads theselves is.. XoX LIKE everday bro theres a quiz or deadline of a project i cant even keep track of anymore sometimes its even 2x quizzes a week in the same subject and rn we have an exam this on wednesday+thursday and we have a speech choir on monday which we haven't completed the choreo of!! and we r gonna cook and sell on tues day BUTT we got no classes on fri and next week monday and my ass will NOT be getting up withing those 4 days i swear

and how are the students reacting to all of this?

we are dying.

the school knows what theyre doing.

they put up bars on the 3rd and 4th floors so u cant jump off and kys.

and we aren't even gonna be finished after the exam theres still stuff to do

like.. js send me to college atp

i've already been crying abt this my friends have too, my classmates and other students in each grade level we're deteriorating but physically and mentally just only from school we still have own lives with our family and online too for some ppl they school knows how much their putting on us some teachers are aware they the rest just expect us to do it it makes me lightheaded and dizzy just to get to class my parents have been tight on the rules aswell but i dont wanna talk to them cuz theyre gonna bring up my future or how rude i am compared to them when they were my age or some shit i js want my own room and everything will be solved.

itch.io is blocked on my wifi now wtf... and this site too but on my school's wifi so :(

i got intouch again with some old friends tho so thats good and also i finaly got to cut my hair like a boy cut and ive been called sir now more often when i go out to the mall or even in school by my classmates :3 this dude got mistaken that i was his friend then told me that i really look like a boy, im non binary actually but it feels rlly nice ^_^ (im not sure if that should matter tho lol)

i hope pookie darling with experience the same very soon !!

i got off topic lmao

what i originally wanted to b like was to give off this specific vibe? i made a pinterest board

mainly focusing on the color scheme, i wanna be like dusky blue grey color and for personality i wanna be like chill and somewhat mysterious? but thats so hard to do and in the end makes me look clueless abt everything lol and part of it like i want to be responsible studious and expressive and artisctic poetic. and i also want to have like fluffy hair but i dont have the products nor the time to focus on my appearance all i can do now is hae evrything blue colored which i do have so yay i hope my skin clears up and maybe become more fair and i become slimmer and taller and my voice deepens and my face becomes more defined or i become a vampire

i want to say more stuff but idk what so im gonna leave it here 4 now

baii :3