Pretty privileged and the taste of it

I have been bullied because of my style so I changed it

 I used to really fuck with fashion ,like I loved fashion ,each day I would go to school looking completely different wearing an outfit I had thought of for hours...mostly vintage stuff,80s sweaters,70s rock outfits,or just experimentation.... Then turned a bit punk,got bullied a bit,by my rich spoiled school mates cause btw I go to a semi private school, then my teachers bullied me, yk how teachers have theyr target student? Yhea it was me especially when I was more punk ,and I'm also not really good at school (I have dyslexia and hdhd so you can imagine how it goes) so they had a "reason" and then my parents,  they didn't like it and yk maybe they did use the excuse of "you'll get bullied" but know I have tasted the horrifying reality of the infamous "Pretty privileged ".

Right after my dad talked to me about the importance of the way people perceive you ,i told myself that I would try looking like the others ,we whent shopping to the stores that teen girls go to like subdued...brandy Melville and the next day I wore my new stuff. I kid you not I was instantly treated differently, on the bus,by my teachers ,it felt weird and wrong and I whent back in forth with myself if this was really me and if I wanted to be so lazy with fashion and outfits that I took hours to assemble before? Yes because I was treated better ,I wasn't bullied anymore ,when people looked at me they didn't look at me weird ,I just needed to flash a smile and they would lisen to me and not ignore me or side eyed me ,believe me I have thought many times of going back looking somewhat cool but no...im to lazy...the harsh reality is that looking like everyone else can make you feel good and included

I nowadays dress a bit grunge when I'm at home alone or I don't have to see anybody but yhea...

It's just sad that people judge a book by its cover I wish it wasn't like that....