Mental health posts (tiny tw)

I went offline for like a week or two recently bc of my mental health so why not document this idk

So I was all over the place for like a month or two before I went afk, probably bc all my friends dropped me all at once in the gc cuz i was in the Hospital and didn't hang out w them, so after I got out it kinda destroyed me. Idk I was acting irrational, paranoid, had religious delusions or smth (I'm not even religious just a lil bit if trauma) and one of my remaining friends said I was acting manic but idk I was just super hyper 

After that I just kinda stopped being hyper and went back into a depressive episode again and I was seriously thinking about reopening my healed cuts (they're not really visible at all I used some sort of treatment on them to make them dissapear) cuz I missed them and how they looked on me, which is when I realized I should go offline for a while.. I'm like 1 almost 2 years clean and I rather not go back (I still have depression it's chronic but the state u was in when I was doing that was something else..) 

I kinda had to tell my mom to like forcefeed me bc i could feel I wasn't eating and that combined with my anemia and history of trying to "fast" for periods to loose weight was not a good combo. At least she didn't ask questions and probably thought it was bc of my anemia or iron deficiency ig

Anyway I'm better now, i actually cleaned my room recently (like thoroughly) and that's when I realized I'm better now. Also if anyone needs to talk abt their issues I'm here (and if u need I have a few tips to help make scars invisible idk