Feelings i guess???

I love making and having friends I'm sure everyone likes that too right? Wrong some people do not and it's fine but some people are just plain rude I lost 2 of my friends... one was the most closest friend I ever had we met all the way back in elementary (5th grade) we talked it was cool she was cool and I was happy to be her friend, growing up I didn't have any friends so making friends was such a big deal to me and when I don't have any i feel lile a loser but anyways we were very close well at least to me and we stayed as friends until the beginning of high school that's when everything changed. She Ingored me and I felt like I was doing smth wrong and I make matters worse I was already dealing with some family issues, time skip I sent her a message explaining the whole situation and asking if she doesn't wanna be friends anymore because I'm not gonna force you to become my friend and we communicated well but then one day she just stop AGAIN and to this day we never spoke Again I'm now a sophomore idk why I'm even writing this no one cares LOL goodbye my fatass is hungry. ^_^