life update stuff idk (bad spelling warning lmao)

im gonna start a diary thing on here bc its no fun writing in a book only for no one to ever see it like thats BORRINGG..

sigh.. ill start with the good stuff this week first, then the bad stuff near the end so if no one wants to read anything negitive today they dont have 2!!

okay erm so.. ive started designing keychains and stickers of ninjago characters to sell cuz i wanna start saving money for stuff and i dont currently have a job due to the fact i wanna focus on school be4 i have any more pressure put on me lmaoooaoao.. ive only finished one (of cole and geo) but ill probs do pixal and zane next!! ill probs start with the main ninja and the main ships too, then ill do other characters. making keychains and stickers isnt that expensive but i still wanna be careful with money.

one of my friends saw korn live recently and im SOO jelly >_< i would love to see them live one day! also next yr in febuary im seeing kurtis connor with my friend!!!!! so im super exited for that :D 

now the bad stuff ghhhghghhgh small tw for harassment! if u dont wanna read this bit u can skip to the cat emoji

im not a huge fan of venting on the internet for multiple reasons but i have no one to talk to soo :p

i have like 1 friend at school rn and we only talk in one of our classes o im basiclly alone all day and it sucks.. i have 2 friend-crushes but im too nervous to talk to them cuz im too socially awkkward :( one of them is in some of my classes and sometimes he comes to talk to me but i always get super nervous and usually dont say much and i feel very very bad abt it. i dont want him to think i dont like him, i think hes super cool!! i wish i could talk to new people, especially since im always lonely at school and its kinda embarrassing cuz i feel like ppl r constantly judging me for being on my own and quiet all the time. and the ppl i DO hang out with have started to ignore me (ever since i said i was strongly agaisnt temu, shien and ai generated images. they do al that stuff tho like buy from temu and make ai "art"so idk if they r ignoring me bc of that or its jst me) and i hate it so much. 

also one of my friends has been super mean latley, and isnt being a good friend to me. hes friends with a bunch of horrible cishet men who constantly harrass me in a way thhat very much ISNT legal, and says "its jst their sence of humor!!" or wtvr, but then gets mad at me when i say even ONE thing mearly related to ninjago.. i was BEGGING him to block the guy who harrased me and he would say he did but DIDNT. i know this because he was always adding him to gcs and talking with him.. and the only reason he ended cutting him off was because he called him a name he didnt like. (horse without the s basiclly) so THATS where he draws the line?? not only that but when i opend up to him abt the harassment i told him i didnt want anyone to confront him abt it bc he wouldnt take it seriously and call me a manipulator or somethng and yk what he did? he went and told him. "oh yea zawmbie said u basically harassed them" "holy victim complex" excuse me?? and then they brushed off what he did like it was nothing. he says he cares abt me but then goes and becomes friends with everyone who hurt me and gets mad and goes off at me if i call them out for the bad things they did/are doing.

also conviniently , he cut him off after he face revealed, and my friend kept calling him names and then turned on him. it makes me wonder if they would still be friends if he was conventionally attractive? idk maybe im reaching to far... we've been friends since 3rd grade yet i feel like he doesnt cherish me the way i do to him , and that he could, and would, replace me with ease

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IDK THATS BASICLY THIS WEEK GHHGHHGHGHHGHGHGHGHHHGGHGHHHG HAPPY FRED DURST FRIDAY CHAT!!!!!! :D I CANT WAIT FOR THE WEEKENDDDD GHHH

WHEN I GET HOME TODAY ILL DO AN ART DUMP ON MY MAIN!! >_< WOOHOO!!! 🎉