i m afraid to die.

I'm afraid to die.

School will start soon and I will become the most miserable and rotten person for everyone again. I don't want to suffer again, I doubt that I will even finish school. My depression is only getting worse. I will have to lie to the psychologist about my condition, because if my parents find out that something is wrong with me, they will not accept me. Never.

My "friends" most likely don't care about me. They don't care, I see it. And I realize that no one needs me. My mom, dad, friends and other relatives don't need me.

I recently had a panic attack at night, which lasted 1.5 hours. Last night I couldn't fall asleep because I was crying and couldn't calm myself down.

I'm just afraid of unconsciously committing suic*de.

I don't want to live, but I don't want to die either.