The moon is always with me

Good evening everyone. I'm in the camper again. 

Today I emailed some people for fun, wrote in my journal, and went on a couple of walks. I feel relaxed here for the most part. 

But, still, every day I get super sad for about an hour or two. It is hard to get out of the sadness but I do. It helps to think of my blessings. 

I have a girlfriend who loves me, friends and parents that love me. I have a home and a camper. I am blessed and I am loved. And I haven't always had all of this but now I do. And I like it. And no matter what happens I'll never be as bad as how I felt a few months ago.

Last night I went on a golf cart ride to the swamp near my camper. The swamp is near some docks. The moon was out and the sky was clear. The moon is my friend and I look at the moon & it is home to me. I think about death a lot, mostly loved ones dying. People are getting old and it is scary. But the moon won't die in my lifetime. I'll always have her, She won't leave me. It comforts me to think of things staying the same. Everything changes except the moon. The phases of the moon change, yes, but the full moon always comes back.

I think it will all be OK.