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this might be a bit of a rant but here's how my weekend went if you are intereseted. On saturday i went to long island and i stayed at the community pool in my aunt's area and that was fun. There wasn't any other kids though it was just kinda adults but i had fun talking to them. my sister was there and i talked to her too. then i went back to the house to get changed and then later we all had pizza. i went out for a walk during the time when the sun was setting so it was very very beautiful outside i loved it. then i came home and we played a game called Left Right Center and that was fun :) that was basically the end of that day. but at night, it was hard to sleep and i was listening to the BEST ALBUM EVER Fast Times At Barrington High by The Academy is!!!!! i cried to some of the songs lol. but eventually at 2am i fell asleep and woke up feeling really tired and dizzy but over time it went away.

On Sunday i went to a family reunion. It was at a state park in a pavilion. Me, my sister and my aunt had to arrive there early(like 8am) to set up. the state park we went to had a playground nearby and when we were done setting up we had so much time before family came and i was bored out of my mind so i went to the park. It ha those rocker things and i love those. it was also before everyone else got there so it wasn't crowded. I came back it was like 10am, wasnt a lot of people yet but after about an hour people started coming. I didn't know that many people there but all the old people said all the "oh my god i havent seen ya since ya was a little boy!" type shit. i waited some time for teens to arrive. eventually some girl showed up and had a lot in common with my sister but i got along with her very well. i was hoping to see at least one boy there and i did. but that family came much later like 12-1pm. he was very shy as was i. it took me SO long to force myself to go up to him to introduce myself. we didnt know what to say to each other it was kinda weird. he was my age so that was cool. he had 2 sisters who were a bit older than me but i got along with them. later on all 3 of them and their grandpa were playing a ball catch game with like those puffer balls that i love SO much. that was so fun and we all had good laughs. me, one of the girls and the boy took it outside of the pavilion to play it and i remember that the boy was throwing the ball at his sister really aggressively and that was super funny. shortly a little spanish girl who's 4 because it was her 4th birthday came over to play with us. she was from a different family so she wasn't part of our party. but she was sooo sweet. she had a little paris dress on and a pink hair bow. the people i was playing with were actually fluent in spanish since they took a class in school and they got a trip to spain. they were talking to her in spanish and that was so cool. i unerstood what they were saying though because i know a bit of spanish. that girl really liked the puffer ball. soon she walked away but came back and sat us down at a picnic table to play with her kinetic sand. she was very sweet i remember i got up from my seat but she pointed to me and pointed to the seat indicating she wanted me to sit back down i dont think she wanted me to leave lol.

I ended up bonding with the boy in the end and we had a good time. my nana drove me home. she got me and my sister a bunch of clothes and i got new skinny jeans, a new camo jacket and a spongebob washcloth that looks very stupid and i love it. i also got some other jeans including apple bottoms but i dont know if i will wear the apple bottoms. i might give them to my friend for her birthday in December because every time i think of apples i think of her. but yeah the next day my entire body was sore af because i ran back and forth a lot and even was hallucinating i was still on the rocker because i spent WAY too long on it. i haven't been outside that long in actual AGES. it was amazing.

And so with said friend, on Monday i went to the mall with her. It has been 8 months since i've been to the mall so I really wanted to go. For some reason my friend didn't seem too happy or excited while we were there. I asked her if she was okay but she said she was. Maybe she was just tired? but anyway i had fun. I got a new I Heart Boobies! bracelet because i need more. I have a black and white one and now a white and red one. I got them both from the same exact store too lol. I didnt get my toddler shirts or white t shirt because i already spent too much money on a FUCKING BAG OF CANDY FROM IT'SUGAR I SPENT $25 ON IT I DIDN'T REALIZE IT WOIULD BE THAT MUCH!! and i regret it so badly but the candy was good. i had $50 when i got there and now i have like 20 so that's fantastic. i do not get money a lot so that was a horrible decision. maybe i can get my toddler shirts another time. i wouldve gotten them but my friend didnt seem to interested in going into ANY stores that i wanted to and i didnt want to tire her out more than she already seemed. BY THE WAY WHILE WE WERE DRIVING TO THE MALL I GOT REALLY PISSED OF AT MYSELF BECAUSE I HAVE 2 HOT TOPIC COUPONS THAT EXPIRE ON THE 31ST OF AUGUST AND I FORGOT TO BRING THEM BECAUSE MY MOM WAS RUSHING ME OUT THE DOOR. AN IM NOT GOING BACK TO THE MALL FOR ANOTHR LIKE YEAR SO NOW I CAN'T FUCKING USE EM!!!!! just another thing to put on my wall then.. but anyway i got home at around 8pm and took my shower. i was kind of tired but not really. but i slept peacefully.

And yeah now the rest of my summer days will just be spent continuing my rotting cycle. Rotting in my room, sitting at my computer the second i wake up, not bothering to get changed, eating like 1 or 2 things a day, taking a shower and going to bed. because i barely have any friends to hang out with and they're always busy. or they just don't feel like it. i just cherish all the moments i have when i am with them because i know it will be 8 years the next time we do hang out. And that's my rant! like, subscribe and turn on the notificaiton button so you never miss another video and ill see you guys next time! goodbyr!!!!!