wow!

posting these is just like pouring a cup of water onto a forest fire. still, even if it's pointless, i'll carry on. i'm 100% going to university, providing i get the necessary grades, which i'll get in two days (technically one day). it's terrifying but invigorating. i know what uni i want to go to, the course i want to study (philosophy, which i knew i wanted to do all along anyway), and the ideal accommodation. the only issue is how uncertain things are: don't know my grades, don't know if there will be space on the course, don't know if the accommodation i want will be available, etc. i'm so scared but the most excited i've ever been in my life >.<