School on Thursday =\

Soon things will all be going back to the way they were just a few months ago, which I have already expressed unhappiness over at least a million times but I've got the inherent adolescent urge to keep brooding about it. I'm doing some Khan Academy stuff to try to prepare for the harder upcoming classes but I'm likely not going to become the "academic weapon" I wish I was. But I'm hoping to hone a skill of some sort regardless; I'll probably keep working on singing until I get good. Which will do nothing helpful for me because I'm still not planning to get on stage, but also, sometimes I really think I should take that chance.

Only when I have existential crises do I decide wholeheartedly that I should just do what I want to- but when I come back down to Earth I go back to my logical decision making that tells me to leave it, and that it won't be so easy, and most importantly that I'm too late to make a passion out of it. So I continue to be paralyzed by choice and do nothing. Which is not really fun.

But I've got better things to worry about this school year. Like not getting a B on my math final this year XC That wasn't great. But I'll keep on keeping on or whatever. 

Oh! And I'm planning to enter the Scholastic Writing Contest this year with a screenplay. I've tried to enter five writing contests over the past four years, but I never end up finishing what I write. So I'm starting early this time around. Maybe the sixth time's the charm?