like our lives before

this is oc lore kinda sucks

i guess ill just have to suffer
with this lingering taste in my mouth
that i wish i had another life with you
we've met a million times before
it was neverending, but somehow you did
i wish you didnt
i wish you lived
i wish you were here with me in my ribs
i wish your brother happiness
i wish him life, he gave part of his for mine
for you
he was all for you, everything you were to him
to me
you are to me like snow is to trees,
beautiful, but how death withers away
glassy iced sword
you've taken my life
ours and his and hers and mine. my life, who is she
i wish i was unable to go on, to live how i am
though we were one and the same
somehow you became death-ridden
somehow i could live, your brother lives
for us
caring, warm, childish feelings
seep into my heart like the day you kissed me
she took you
she hated you
she never cared for you, she split you apart and shoved knives into your open wounds
i never knew her
she does not exist
why only to you?
we are immortal, you resurrect as another and the same
so why did you stop?
we were to go on forever
why couldn't you come back this time?
you did
i'm sure of it
i hope
i hoped for as long as i could
never this long
it was always strange, how you worked
i liked it
i still love it
i love you
why did you stop this time?
maybe it was her
or maybe you've given up
how cruel of me to assume, but i know
i know and i understand. things wouldn't have been okay anyway
i'm sorry.
however we would still be together
we've done once before
your brother
he talks about the girl
your motherly sister
who you reminisced so much
the other one, dangling in the harsh air
unfortunate for you to see
i'm sorry
sorry doesn't do anything
it never has
but i still am
everyone is
he reminds me of you
you are him
i wish to know you like that
and i am grateful