School drama pt 1

The worst thing to happen to you your whole life is not having friends and lack of self confidence . At my second week at middle school on a Friday was this thing that happened in school called fresh air Friday which happened at the last Friday of each month which was basically recess.  since I was in sixth grade  and the 6th graders where new to the school we didn't have to earn points to attend since you needed points for it. We had this pep rally then the fresh air Friday.  I was happy the whole school day until when fresh air Friday happened. If you've read my bio you would know how I have social anxiety. Because I had never friends to eat with at school I ate alone and listened to other people's conversations. Before middle school it was the same at recess I was always sitting in the hot sun waiting for recess to end. Rainy days where my best friends .I thought on Air fresh Friday we would play different games together and we would rotate like gym class. Instead they just placed us in the two gyms a soccer one and a basketball one. I sat on the gym floor crying since I always wanted a friend that would stay by me forever and seeing people connecting together laughing playing while you where left with nothing was very heartbreaking. I was crying but I had to wipe my tears since 2 people from my homeroom who have the same schedule as me came to ask if I was OK I told them yes but I wasn't OK. The fact they where literally best friends probably from the same school filled me with hatred. I was so mad at seeing those people be happy because I couldn't.  Now I sound like a villain.when the thing was done and we all got back to class I sat and I started crying . Two girls from my 4th period asked if I was alright I also ignored them telling them to shut up because seeing them together make me feeled worse.when I got home almost all the food was already gone from those big backs.anyways whoever who wants to be my friend I'll accept you pls before asking for a friend request or sending one look at my bulletin board by baes...😘😘