i wrote a song...☆

(verse 1)

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my reality is shaking

i feel like i'm breaking

(there's hope in the dark and i'm comfortably afraid)

i don't want to say it

i know that you hate it

(there's nothing else to say when screams are in vain)

(prechorus1)

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is there any meaning in this reflection

staring into my own eyes

my mind is a liar my heart is the victim

they both know that i can't hide

leave me alone!

(chorus)

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call me a freak

i'm just being me

this is not your destiny

there's nothing else left

i'll roam in your head

this is not the real me

(verse 2)

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my reality is shaking

i feel like i'm breaking

(i want to be broken to to be set free)

the shadow behind me

will never defy me

ive built a beautiful castle of lies

(prechorus2)

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(i'm the queen of lies)

i'll defend myself until it doesn't matter anymore

you know that i'll never change

you think that you know me 

i hope you were joking

i don't want your misery

(i can't break free from my disguise)

(chorus)

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call me a freak

i'm just being me

this is not your destiny

there's nothing else left

i'll roam in your head

this is not the real me

(bridge)

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love is a broken record with no end

i'll break though the walls i've created

that covered the meaning of myself

leave me alone!

(chorus)

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call me a freak

i'm just being me

this is not your destiny

there's nothing else left

i'll roam in your head

this is not the real me

i'll defend myself until it doesn't matter anymore

you know that i'll never change (i'll never change)

you think that you know me 

i hope you were joking

i don't want your misery (i don't want your misery)

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I'm very sorry if it sounds cringy or cheesy THIS IS MY FIRST SONG...XD

This song is about insecurity, self loathe, and hiding who you really are or being pressured to fit in for reasons like being scared of not pleasing others or being hated through others opinions and preferences. it's like a disguise that you are sick of posing, coming from the chorus, it's also about embracing who you really are with pride and not giving a crap about what others think cus It's not about what others think, but what God thinks. :-)

Did i just create an alternative anthem?

"call me a freak i'm just being me" sounds like a slap in the face from the alternative culture and I like how that sounds. :D

i don't have a music studio or any professional sounding instruments but i was thinking of using Garageband. It probably won't sound like what i'm thinking in my head but i'll make it work so my idea/concept is there until I someday get a studio or get a band. I don't know how i'll make a band though, I have no friends and I'm socially awkward XD

For some parts of the song i want to fry scream the lyrics. I want to fry scream so badly. I'm scared of people listening to me practicing >_<

I kind of want to make this song style kind of like Get Scared or AFI but i don't knowww x3

I'm a pretty shy person so this song doesn't really relate me </3 but I want to make this song a perspective of one of my characters.