torn between two choices.

 I’m 16, and let me tell you, family life is not what I dreamed it would be. It feels like I’m stuck in this never-ending cycle of arguments and abuse.

I know a lot of people say, “Just wait until you’re older, and you can move out!” But here’s the thing: I want to move out NOW. It’s like I can see a life where I can breathe, make my own decisions, and not feel like I’m walking on eggshells all the time. But then I think about my family. Ugh, it’s so complicated! 

There’s still a part of me that loves them. I mean, they’re my family, right? But then the arguments happen, and it’s like all that love gets buried under a mountain of frustration and hurt. 

I’m scared. Scared of what leaving would mean for me and for them. Would they even notice I’m gone? Would they care? Or would it just be another chapter in the drama that is our lives? I feel like I’m standing at a crossroads, and I don’t know which path to take. 

Some days, I just want to cry. I want to scream into a pillow and let all these feelings out. I wish I could just pack a bag and run away to a place where I can feel safe and happy. But then I think about how hard it would be to start over. What if I fail? What if I end up regretting it?

Please give me any advice.