Time for an update post, I got a lot to say actually. [warning: fucked up]

Hey y'all, Sonic here. I've been uh... Kinda going crazy over the past few days? I'll explain what needs to be said, and give an update regarding what exactly I'm busy with right now.

Just a heads-up warning, this is going to be long and fucked up like the title says. Serious shit.

Ah... It feels good to be good enough to actually write something down on this blog. I don't even know where to begin. I guess y'all would know what I was going through if you were in my server.

I just... I don't know man, I'm gonna waffle about it without any particular order or theme or topic.

For like what, the past week? The past two weeks? I've been losing my mind and might have gone through some sort of depression. I was feeling really sad and hopeless all the time, and I might have even seen some stuff that no matter how much I try to explain really did happen, without sounding schizophrenic. I certainly feel better now. Not the best, but good enough. That might change any day, I don't know.

Now I guess I shouldn't get too personal on this post because 1, I'm bored and tired, and 2, It's probably none of y'all's business. Those who know, know. Those who don't know, don't need to.

I should get to... I should get to what I've been producing, I guess.

During this depression era, I made the most personal, the most heartbreaking, the most sad thing I've ever made. It's so serious that it's under my real name, and it's in Turkish. To add to the emphasis, I've also released this on Memories Always Endure The Passage. Yeah, remember that?

Maalesef, hayat artık eskisi gibi değil by Eray Sarı

This really means a lot to me. I hope it doesn't get slept on like every other thing I make. But that will probably be the case. Damn.

I also made it paid so Teat MotherFUcking PIECE OF SHIT CUNT DOESN'T FUCKING STEAL IT. I fucking hate that bitch, appeared in my nightmares, and I've seen the future. I want to kill him. He's still making more bootlegs, and it pisses me off so much. I'm just too lazy to include the new links in Meet The Posses' description. Actually, I'm going to add them after I type this blog. 

You won't know how much I hate that fucker. I want to cry from anger just by thinking about him. He's still doing this shit, and it's insulting to me. I'm out here, suffering and shit, and he's out there, still doing this shit. Fuck you Teat Thew, seriously. I want you to fucking die.

He's still going on. Speaking of Teat Shit, we're ending FREA$HCAMP for the third time again. And for real this time. "Steal And Meiling" will be be the third compilation album, and after that no more FREA$H.

Anyways... I should... I should talk about myself.

I'm working on Memories Always Endure The Passage. Don't worry, this isn't the death of Sonic4 Test Records. Although I've thought about countless times and ways about killing it. I'm just not going to give up. I was really close to giving up, but I'm not gonna do that. I fucking swear...

Like, right now, I'm working on a new album by The Outsider. It's going to be on Memories Always, but I might also release it on Alice98 Test Records. I don't really know. It's going to be 7 tracks, and as for the style of it, it sounds like a Sparky Nova fan project. Lmao, that's the best way to put it. And as for the topic of it, it's going to be a prequel to Unfamiliar Moments.

Edit: I released that album today, check it out: The Hakurei Border by The Outsider

I don't really know what to add onto this. I'm out here, I might be making shit, but I'm going to be working on Memories Always Endure. I'm not killing Sonic4 Test Records, but taking a break and preparing for the future. After I'm done with Memories Always, I might come back to Sonic4 Test and change the website or something. I really need to do an overhaul, but I can't because I'm too lazy and unambitious to work.

I'm so done, man. I'm as fragile as a thin wine glass and in the blink of shattering. I'm doing my best to show my love and support for the ones that I care about, trying my best to not go insane, and trying my best to not give up. I'm not celebrating because this is not the good end for me. It's just a good moment of clarity.

See you all later.