maybe like a person...

A couple years ago I had a weird thing with this girl I knew-- long story short she ended up being insane. I told her I liked her and like we kindaaa had a thing-- super hard to explain. but i was content being her friend after that, and just said yk "dont tell abt who youre doing it with." Seemed reasonable to me, but she would give me as much detail as humanely possible about the guy she was hooking up with. (dude was also a raging misogynist, racist, and transphobe-- i am two of those...)

After that, I've had trouble putting myself out there. I've always struggled with feeling romantic attraction, but I'm actually interested in someone. ugh but my last experience makes me scareddd and im just not confident I can talk to this person I like. but theyre so cool, ugh I really hope I can.

I'm going to my best friends hardcore show on Wednesday, and they'll be there with their band so hopefully I can chat em uppp.

wish me luck sillies