ranting about my crush #O1

erm so basically i really really reallllyyyyyy like this one boy. idk why but he just captivates me and makes me feel loved. i started crushing near beginning of july and he had as well, but now he thinks this isn't going to work out because of his godsister and other personal reasoning. not only that but i also have been crushing on one of my friends but everytime i give her a subtle hint, she doesn't pick it up since it's kinda in our humor to do so. she's so pretty and way out of my league and we don't even go to the same school tg so we can't see each other often, but she's someone i've known for forever and someone i trust a lot and i feel like if i do confess, it'd make it awkward because i know she doesn't feel the same or be the type to fall in love with someone like me. :<