vent ($h tw)

i hate how everything pisses me off. i cant even remember the last time i was truly happy about life and myself, the only emotions i can feel are anger, sadness and boredom. and i keep cutting myself to calm myself down the fastest. sometimes i hit myself in the head|| with something blunt. i just wish i could feel something other than 3 emotions. i have a problem with the urge to break everything for no reason at all, it happens when im angry, sad or both. life just fucking sucks in general. even if its as simple as accidentally dropping something i get aggravated and cut myself even with the fucking spotify ads that last forever make me want to kill myself.