i might start blogging frequently...

for some reason, im quite scared of posting lots of stuff/being myself online. 

Im really not sure why since I don't tend to be this way in real life, im actually pretty extroverted. I have this big anxiety about people finding the way I type, my views, my interests weird or cringe. i mean I don't even have very obscure interests but im incredibly insecure about them. maybe insecure isn't the right word. It's more that the thought of anyone disliking me makes me a bit sick, but now that I think about that, I don't think it's the same in real life. I don't really know myself well.

However, I've decided to simply not give a fuck and to post anything I want on here. I want to get rid of that performative mentality and just. talk about what I want to talk about. Maybe ill find people with similar interests. Maybe ill get rid of that unnecessary fear.