yap warning loollll

heyyyaaa!!! this is allot of yapping it probably will not make much sense at all and! its lowkey venty!! so read if you want i guess

i do have friends and stuff but i still cant really help but feel like they dont actually like me and i dont actually mean anything to them.. like i feel like my friends are only friends with. me because they feel bad.. and i wanna ask them if they are only friends with me because they feel bad or if they actually enjoy my company but i really really do not want to bother them or ruin the mood.. help.. soz... if you see this pls tell me you dont hate me thx!!!