college and feeling blegh

anyways i feel like im going crazy bc everyone around me is going to college rn and im not bc i want to get a job and like learn to drive before i start college and its so annoying bc i feel like such a waste-oid. not anything bad abt ppl who like take gap years or just dont go to college but it is just so isolating bc all my friends and cousins are going and im stuck home alone bc i was shit ass at being a person when i was 16. but yeah all i feel is miserable like most of the time anymore and i just miss my people anyways.

xoxo theo