I find myself getting quieter as my thoughts grow louder,
My head pounds with my screaming voice,
Every single thing I hate screams at me to be aware,
To be aware of its presence as I clench my fist and feel my heart pound in frustration,
I want to rib my brain apart until it quiets down, to tear off my skin so I will never be known,
I feel myself wanting to rip my eyes out of their sockets so I no longer have to see my own body,
The body that gets affected by my wrenched thoughts, my eyes that can only see the flaws
I want to stab my heart so it could quiet the awful beating,
The thoughts, the body, and the heart all that show I am alive,
I want it to be gone,
I want to die if I have to live this awful life feeling like I cannot be a human,
I am a monster born to want to die,
I crave the feeling of no longer existing.
But I know if I am not myself, what could I ever be?
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